Why I Decided to Give Up Makeup for Lent

There's a popular korean phrase that I love, 

"너 나 잘하세요". 

[Loosely translated: worry about yourself]

In recent years, I started dealing with hurt and disappointment from others by punishing myself. Instead of just feeling disappointed or hurt and being angry at the source of the pain, I will tell myself over and over,  "너나잘헤, 너나잘헤".  Because I know I can't control what anyone else thinks or does, I start to reign in on what I can control, me.  Essentially, I'm lowering my expectations of others, while simultaneously raising the bar for myself.  I get super critical and turn that self-awareness up all the way up.  I quickly sweep the broken bits away, and begin looking for all the ugly things I need to fix inside and outside.  I get obsessive about presenting the best me.  Internally, I'll downplay my own feelings and take the high road so I can be the 'better person'.  Externally, I will carefully coordinate every outfit, not leave the house until my makeup is perfectly applied, and put a big fake  smile on my face.

This season, I'm being led to break free the standards I've set for myself.  These next 40 days, I will go fully makeup free.  It's scary and liberating at the same time- I have a trip to LA planned and a birthday coming up so it's gonna be tough..But it's more than being comfortable with any bare physical features- I didn't wear that much makeup to begin with.  Rather, my hope is to focus less on my flaws and more on my creator, God.  And in doing so, discover the fearfully wonderfully made-version of me.  I'm excited to see how God will speak into my life and the things He will reveal to me during this time! Hope you'll also be encouraged to be set free from anything that's holding you back from being you~

<3.

because nothing is real until you post it on the internet..my first ever zero makeup, no filter, no camera 360, full-face selfie. Feel free to leave a comment below! I'm gonna run away now.